I considered killing myself – Anita Nderu

I wanted to blow my brains out - The Trend panelist revealed.

Anita (Instagram)

Media personality Anita Nderu recently revealed that in 2018, she went through months of depression and at some point considered taking her life.

“I cried myself to sleep and cried every morning, my eyes were always puffy. I would RSVP yes to events, hire gowns etc then not go cause I did not want to be around people plus my eyes were puffy and I didn’t want to answer all the are you okay questions. The people who caused all this, still sleep soundly at night, I don't get how but they do. To each their demons right? Above all even the one night I cried so much I contemplated killing myself, guys I wanted to blow my brains out, I remember only @dunn_can thought I wasn't okay that night when he saw me. I asked myself, are they worth it? No. God has a plan, he always does just hang in there boo. I recently addressed this issue in a WhatsApp group, the person supposed to be impartial was so rude, I cried even more,” Anita disclosed.

At some point, she decided to drop the issue and move on. “I had no choice but to get over it and move on. I still see all of them from time to time, I will never stop being a nice person, I will however only allow positive energy and nothing else. I still get episodes from time to time but I am coping better now. Time heals…It hurts yes but you would rather sleep with a clean conscience than not sleep at all. God and Karma will deal with them boo.”

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