Everyday I break down and wish to die – KTN director mourns son

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Jirongo Luyali  mourns son (Facebook)

Jirongo Luyali the man behind some of Kenya’s biggest shows including Jameni where he served as a scriptwriter and KTN’s Daktari show is in mourning.

The gifted filmmaker recently lost his 4-year-old son Joshua and he broke the sad news in a post that read, “I have lost. I have lost the most important thing in my life. I have lost my son. I have no strength. Nothing is left to fight for. My everything, my handsome man.”

In the following post, the director revealed that his son’s passing is so surreal to him and every day he goes through unimaginable pain.

“Life has no meaning from now. I have asked God so many questions. But I know you are his child and he has put you in a good place. I ask God to make my remaining time run fast so that I meet you. Our great moments have to continue my son. Nothing will ever replace you. No child will replace you. Your memories will never leave me. And those memories will be so painful. God, it's painful. Forgive me for questioning you. But it's torture. It's pain. I have never imagined this. I can't say RIP. I can't sleep. I left you lying on a cold metallic trolley in the mortuary. Your body was still warm. No. You are not dead. I'm waiting for the mortuary attendant to call me and tell me that you have woken up,” read his heartbreaking post.

He then went on to admit that getting closer to God has helped him even during the devastating days where he breaks down and wishes to die from the pain. “Since the day my son passed on, I have read almost half of the books in the Bible. I have completed reading the book of Job, Revelations and many chapters of other books. The Bible has really given me strength, hope and comfort. I never imagined I would overcome the pain, sorrow and grief. I thought I would die too. I had a friend who died two weeks after the death of his wife. God has really given me assurance through his word. Every day there are moments I usually break down and wish I die and my memory erased. Truly, it's the most difficult place to be. But God will not leave me alone. I have moved closest to him.”

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